Christmas, so close!

Ever weird, I have a job and im sticking to it! Its only at Walmart but its still basically my first job other then babysitting and stuff. Its not that bad either, hurts my back and legs a little but it isnt boring, it keeps you busy and you make money at the same time :). Im happy about it too because i can actually buy my mom and dad something good this year, like I told myself I would. Anddddd I actually have a bf to buy things for this year which im excited about because i CAN its mint!

Other then that im getting a little sad about christmas, i keep imagining myself getting a nice puppu for Christmas since Foxy, my current lil pom is my moms.. She was mine but it looks like my mother needed a friend at the time more then me, plus i was about 11 years old when i got Foxy so she basically got attatched to my mom, which im happy about because my mom NEEDED her, well now i feel like i NEED my own friend, i have friends, enough anyway but sometimes they dont tell you what you want to hear, sometimes they make you feel worse when there only trying to make you feel better. Yeah i have my cat Buddah but cats arent like dogs, I just dream of having my own dog to bring everywhere with me(Except for work ext.) Cant though, no matter how much i dream, it'd be too hard to train a puppy from an apartment plus my moms apartment is too small for a big dog, not like i want her to be big, just medium sized and all MINE. Its not going to happen, not for a while but a girl can dream!
Anyway im off <3

P.s please let us move outta that place so i can actually get my puppy! (yn)

Forever gone.. so it seems.

Okay so im kinda new at this stuff, and from what ive seen from other peoples blogs, considering they usually all start happy, well mines starting differently. Right now im sitting at my boyfriends house, and im upset. Really really upset. This summer my cat ran away, and that cat was my life, his names Ghandi and hes big white/grey ish.. he was my life, he saved my life and now hes gone, everytime i go to my dads i get emotional, like snappy and then i just brake down and i really dont know what to do about this anymore. I miss my baby minou so bad and it hurts so MUCH, i hate how this is turning into just tears, id like to start my first blog from a happy perspective but at this point in my life it just cant be done, for now i guess i'll just take it day by day and see how it goes but it doesnt seem to be getting any better, if anything its getting a whole lot worse and me missing him like this is taking over my life, for the past few weeks thats all ive been thinking about, its just waiting in the back of my head until im alone to explode and then theres just no stopping it, actually i take that back, writing this is actually stopping the tear, kinda like im keeping a journal for the world to see, anyways until next time.