Forever gone.. so it seems.

Okay so im kinda new at this stuff, and from what ive seen from other peoples blogs, considering they usually all start happy, well mines starting differently. Right now im sitting at my boyfriends house, and im upset. Really really upset. This summer my cat ran away, and that cat was my life, his names Ghandi and hes big white/grey ish.. he was my life, he saved my life and now hes gone, everytime i go to my dads i get emotional, like snappy and then i just brake down and i really dont know what to do about this anymore. I miss my baby minou so bad and it hurts so MUCH, i hate how this is turning into just tears, id like to start my first blog from a happy perspective but at this point in my life it just cant be done, for now i guess i'll just take it day by day and see how it goes but it doesnt seem to be getting any better, if anything its getting a whole lot worse and me missing him like this is taking over my life, for the past few weeks thats all ive been thinking about, its just waiting in the back of my head until im alone to explode and then theres just no stopping it, actually i take that back, writing this is actually stopping the tear, kinda like im keeping a journal for the world to see, anyways until next time.