Good news.

I've got a job! It's nothing special, only at Tim Hortons for now, but still.. its money and i'm freaking happy it didn't take me months to get another job. So now is when the saving starts! Not lots, just a little from every check.

Other than that, yesterday my mom told me she wanted us to move in with her friend and her son, and although I love her because shes been moms friend ever since I can remember, and I look at her son like a little brother I still don't want to move into their house, its not a good envirement for me or my mother. She said we wont go though, its a family decision so its going to be alright, we'll just keep looking for a place with no stairs because its hard on her hips, (she has austioporosis) with our little pom Foxy. 

Anyway, things are looking a little better on my part. :)

I've been making this kinda list I guess you can say, about my goals in the next few years, and i've decided im going to just post it right now, and every time I do the next thing on my list, im going to re-pt ost it with the next thing scratched out, just so I can keep track of how long it takes me. 

List

  

- Get a job

- Get a new computer

- Go to school every day for a month

- Start saving money for an apartment for the summer

- Maybe start saving for my puppy? :)

- Graduate school in the in the next yeah and a half

Okay theres all I can think of right now, as I cross things out im sure i'll think of more things to add in there.

Worried.. and impatient.... and stressed.

Ugh, this cold is retarded. I'm getting pretty fed up with this winter bullshit, I can't even go snow blading so whats the fun in snow when theres never anything to DO! I want the summer to return so this winter depression is overrr. I'm worried like crazy about my dad because he isn't working right now, and i'm pretty sure that must be upsetting him, I can see it in his eyes whenever I ask for money and he doesn't have it, which is kinda partly why I've been complaining so much about the cold, I'm not equipped for the winter, my clothes aren't warm enough. 

I need a job now more then ever, I remember wanting a  job only so I can pimp my out my room with kick ass stuff, now its for things that actually matter, like clothes, eventually an apartment in a few months, hopefully this summer so I can finally get on with my life and get that puppy I've been dying to get since I cant even remember. I'm going to be 18 in May, I've had one job in my life and im still going grade 9 work which is pretty pathetic because I should be graduating this year but i'm not, I should be getting my life started

after this summer but I don't even know how long it'll take me to finish my high school then theres college, thats so long until I can start my life.. ughh this is going to take forever but its all going to be worth it in the end. I hope.

I'm hoping to become a nurse and maybe move to Florida for 6 months out of the year MAYBE if I can. I sure hope so because I've got my hole life planned out in my head, 3-4 children, identical twin girls and a little boy when i'm about 24-27, when I don't have my cat Buddah anymore I plan on getting 2 male kittens, one a persian and the other a siamese cat.. within the same week. And then theres my dream dogs that I have to be very patient for because I don't have the type of environment to have a big Samoyed. 

One day I believe i'll reach my goals, i still have the opportunity to lead a good life and thats what i'm gonna do. At this point in my life I've got people in my life who love me and who I love unconditionally, my mothers adorable and awesome, I love my dad more then life its self and my boyfriend Matthew who was there or me when i felt all alone, he is the best friend and boyfriend I can ask for and i'm so lucky I found a good one. I love you bby!

I miss my brothers like I can't even explain, expecially my brother Jamie because I haven't seen him in so long, but hes so much happier where he is now with his beautiful wife, im so happy he found her. My brother Gates is probably the luckiest person I know, hes been traveling the world for a long time, but hes coming to spend a few months at my dads so i'm really excited about seeing him. 

Anyway, thats all for now.. not sure when i'll write next !

P.s ;  Ghandi I still miss you more every single day, please come home