At the moment, things are going okay.. No more sadness, well.. a little. I got my heart broken so of course its still going to hurt, but things are better, its not constant. Lately ive been going through whole days without getting down. Theres always something that reminds me though, but it just doesn't make me very sad anymore.. it feels good to start being happy, to be living life for me now and not somebody else. Im free.
But still, I miss him. Its just not eating at me anymore. Im hoping one day we can be friends, I still want him in my life even if we just hang every so often, play some COD or something haha. Other then that though I moved recently off of that awfull street, waaay better here for mom! No stairs or anything, its perfect for her.
My moms birth mother died yesterday morning.. yet i feel nothing. I barely knew the woman, all i knew about her was that she chose liquor over her husband and daughters, and her boyfriend was a crazy man and threatened to stab my mom in her sleep if we didnt move back to Sudbury. (Btw, we lived in Brighton next door to her for six months when i was 3) I never had respect for her upon hearing that so I dont feel as if i should be sad, but it feels wrong not feeling anything.. she was my grandmother, but she was never my grandma.. Its just weird, idk how to feel. But i will say, R.I.P Virginia, i wish you would have been there as a grandma.. but you werent, if u get to live again in any form, i hope your second life was better then this one.
